Jesus did not exclude anyone from his ministry. He accepts everyone. He leaves it up to you to make the choice to follow him and ask him into your life. Whisper a prayer, and ask God to work in your heart.
Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. Please forgive me for all the things I have done that I know were wrong. Now I know the truth about what you did for me. You came to earth, died on the cross for the things I have done wrong and rose again. I want you to come into my heart, give me the desire to follow you and be the person you created me to be. Thank you Jesus that you care about me at all times. I am not alone when you are with me. Even though I can't see you, I know that you are there. I love you Jesus. You are my friend. Amen.
Ask Jesus to give you a desire to know him more. Pray that he will open your heart, ears, and mind to see how he is at work in your life. He loves you and wants to have a close relationship with Jesus, read the Bible, join a Bible study at a church and hang out with friends who believe in Jesus.
Jesus taught about love, loving your neighbor, loving your family and friends, and even praying for your enemies. God is aGod of love, peace and kindness - not hate or revenge.
If something is confusing, be careful. Chaos and confusion come from the evil one (the devil). God is not the author of chaos, but of order and peace. (see 1 Corinthians 14:33)